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Online Dating...the first installment

Dahlings

It's been a while...

Let me start by saying that I hate dating.

Whenever I write a post about my dating life, please always remember and refer to the above statement. I have a friend of mine who once said "I wish we all had bar codes that only matches with your life partner. We will not waste each other's time, we will know immediately if it's the right person for us." How I wish that were the case.

We are in the thick of COVID-19. I have been in lockdown for almost 4 weeks. I have had a lot of time to think and I've just woken to the realisation that I am 34. I don't feel bad about my age at all. I love the thirties. I feel like it's such a romantic age with myself. I'm digressing. This is not a post about the thirties. The reason why I decided to publish my age is that I always felt like I was 27 until I realised I was 34.



You know what that means for us women....tick tock....

I was watching a clip of The View on YouTube and Sarah Haines described herself in the way that I would talk about myself. She said "when we want something, we go for it. I worked crazy hours to get to where I am. I went to the gym and worked out to a point where I thought I would vomit so I can be thin and yet I thought 'that' part of my life would magically fall into place. I hit my mid 30's and I took it seriously as the rest of my life" (or something to that effect). She is now happily married with three kids and still has a thriving career. I speak about Sarah like I know her personally. lol. It stood out to me that she said she took her love life into her own hands and did something about it.

You see,there are similarities in our lives in that I wanted to improve my life and so I did, I changed career paths, started a YouTube channel which...; I started exercising & putting it out on Instagram for accountability; I put effort into my spiritual walk; I've become very intentional about the relationships that I have, and so on and so forth (side note: am I the only one that feels like a professor in life when I say and so on and so forth?). But relationships were never a huge part of my life. Yes, I have dated - like rain in the desert - but dated nonetheless. I think, unlike the rest of my life, I had hoped it would happen serendipitously. And then I was 34...tick tock...

It takes a while for me to action an idea & even more so, talk about it. I have been toying with the idea of online dating for some time. Yesterday, I was on a call with some of my friends and I asked them all the questions about online dating. As an analyst and a risk averse person, I will playback scenarios in my head until I come up with an action that I am comfortable with B.U.T. there's no formula in dating hence I maybe never put too much effort into it. I especially cringe at the thought of online dating because I hate being on the phone all the time. You must know you mean the world to me if I sit on the phone with you for longer than 15 minutes. I prefer physical interactions. But now I'm 34...tick freaking tock...



I am going to push myself and start online dating. I don't have the time to go out as much as a single person looking for a life partner should. This year I said I will do all the things I can so I can meet someone - hopefully the right one. I will go back to taking part in races, make an effort to go to live music events, and so on and so forth (there I go again winning at being a professor). That very night I decided to go out and do the things - I went out on a wild night out to... the theater and then the following week boom...COVID-19.

Let me be clear, I am not looking for a sperm donor as it may have come across. I am looking for a life partner and a purpose partner. I love my life and would love to do this life with someone else.

So...grab your glass of wine or cup of tea and take this journey with me. Consider this my first installment of my online dating chronicles.

Til later
Hugs
Stellah

Comments

  1. PhindastyleApril 13, 2020 at 9:07 AM

    I'm excited for you!! May the journey be fun🥂 and fruitful and so on and so forth🤗 until happily ever after

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    1. Stellah in the CityApril 14, 2020 at 4:56 AM

      Ahhhh. Thank you my friend. From your lips to God's ears. I hope the same for you too.

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    2. Stellah in the CityApril 16, 2020 at 9:54 AM

      And so on and so forth... Lol

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