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Times, they're changing...

And I refuse to be left behind!

Dahlings

How are you? I'm fine thanks.

So, we left off on a weird note last time. I'm very aware that my life could be a lot worse and I may have sounded like a spoilt brat. Believe me I know. My life has been worse. Really worse. Really really worse. Not worse like living under a bridge kind of worse but I've been through my fair share of crap.

I don't know about you, but sometimes things just get heightened and I feel overwhelmed. My mind is all over the show today so this post may reflect that - I apologise in advance.

Driving home from work, I was listening to a podcast where the guest was asked what her word for the year was. I can't remember what she said because I took that question to heart and tried to remember my word; and I remember it being: ELEVATION. I had a retrospective session in my mind to see if I feel like my life is being elevated and I think there is some traction - not enough but some. I don't know if I am being hard on myself but I feel like I can do better.



I am however feeling a little tired of the grind. I feel like I need time with friends and go to Orbit Jazz Club. I love that place so. freaking. much. I also miss my family in East London. I miss my nieces and nephews so damn much. I miss the beach. I miss road tripping. I miss being outside.

I have a YouTube channel and the main point behind the channel is to chronicle my travels and finding out the real history behind the town/city/country I will be travelling to. Since I am putting myself through varsity, my affordability to travel is really limited both from a time and money perspective. But I thought I need something to look forward to this year. I've been dying to do the wild coast. It's on my bucket list to do Coffee Bay, Mazepa (?) Bay, Port St Johns, etc. To give me something to look forward to I started engaging Dr Google. I must admit, it's making me hella excited.
I generally love travelling by myself. I love my own company. But I found myself wishing I could do the trip with someone. This is a weird feeling because I've never felt this way before. I did a road trip with a friend of mine 3 years ago and it was fun but I wasn't craving company. I unfortunately don't have an answer for this yearning but it is what it is....and it's mostly annoying.

All I know is that yes, my life is being elevated not at the speed I was hoping so I need to level up a bit. Also, making December plans is making me excited for life. There are other things that are happening where I find myself asking "what the eff is happening here". I guess it's teaching me patience because I can only conclude that in good time things will unravel. Right now, I'll focus on changing that which I can control. Anything over and above that God will deal, I'm too dang tired to deal that.

Lastly, we are all given a finite amount of time on earth. Let's try our best to spend most of that time doing what makes our souls smile and hearts sing. That's the attitute I am trying to adopt. That's part of my elevation.

Til next time
Xo
Stellah

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