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End of the year...

Dahlings

How are you? I'm fine thanks.

The end of the year has literally snuck up on me. I did not expect it at all. AT ALL. I still can't believe that when I write the date tomorrow it will be 01/12/2018. If time sprints as quickly as it has been then day after tomorrow I will be writing 01/01/2019.

Yup, it's Friday night and I'm home alone. I am still at war within myself because I feel like I should be out there playing with other kids, making the pots to happen and meeting new people, etc. The plans I had were cancelled and I said "Thank you Lord" because I LOVE being home on a Friday night. I feel like I can really decompress from the hectic week.
But I digress....

Have you ever felt like change is happening atmospherically but in the physical realm nothing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING is happening. I've been feeling for quite some time that I need to prepare myself for big changes. I feel like the changes are gonna be everywhere. Big changes. Good changes.
As a result of this I have decided to not go home this year because I feel like I need to save money and invest it in other things that need to help facilitate the changes. I mean I get it, I probably sound like a loop that needs to be committed. If I were you, I'd get me committed too. But don't, not yet. Give it time. I promise it'll manifest.


I'm tired. So very very tired. I thought I'd be chilling around this time. No worries, no drama. I thought I'd be a slothy sloth that's watching a bunch of series. It's been a long and hard year. #FirstWorldProblems. Oprah said "the definition of luck is where preparation meets opportunity". I'm doing that.

I was also not emotionally prepared for the 10-12 hour drive back home. I love road trips but not today Satan, not today.

Let's give this last month our best shot. Eminem once said "you only get one shot, do not miss your chance blow, this opportunity comes once in a lifetime"

Later

xo
Stellah

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