Stellah in the City.

Dahlings Hi, how are you? I'm fine thanks. Tomorrow & Wednesday I write Business Maths & Accounting. I'm flipping out but not really flipping out. I'm feeling confident that I will pass these exams. I am not too confident that I will get distinctions and that is what I am aiming for. So there's that... I had so many plans this year; I wanted to vlog & blog more consistently. I wanted to save money. I wanted to take my fitness to another level, read books, become more vegan, recycle more, lose weight, save puppies, eat spinach, climb Kilimanjaro, become Beyonce and invent water. Essentially, I wanted to become a mix between, Oprah, Mother Theresa, Yvonne Orji, Casey Neistat and Sarah's Day. That didn't happen. So there's that... I'm still single. So there's that.... I still haven't lost any weight. So there's that.... I don't know what my point is here but I am realising that I have a little over 2 months to make mo...

Dahlings How are you? I'm fine thanks. Firstly, since I started working at my current place of employment I have realised that every time I start a sentence I say "so..."! My English teacher would be beside herself. My mother is probably turning in her grave!!! Fun fact: My mother was a language teacher and was very passionate about it. Anyways... I digress. So, I reread my previous post & I realised that although I needed to acknowledge that I am creative, one of the reasons I didn't want to say it out loud was because I feel like labels can be boxing (ah...finally I sound like a millennial). I am a lot of things which a lot of the time seem paradoxical (I had to double check the meaning of this word because I wanted to sound clever. Lolsies). My normal day job and qualification is business analysis & project management. I love it! I love all of it! I love that it scares me a lot of the time. I love that I feel out of my depth one hundred percent ...

Dahlings How are you? I'm fine thanks. Actually...no. I am not fine. I'm highly PMSing. During this period (pardon the pun) I am very emotional, kinda like stab myself in the eye kind of anger and sadness. Dramatic, I know but whatever. Ugh. The reason why I am telling you that I am PMSing is that I think this post will be highly raw. I may regret it because I am a private person. Perhaps it's a good thing to lay out all these thoughts that have been sprinting in my head for the last couple of months. They are living thoughts and we know thoughts that become words eventually manifest into actions. Brace yourselves, this is probably going to be a brain dump and it may not make sense. (please don't hate me... love me, I'm sensitive and just follow along). Firstly, I need to say this...I am a creative. Phew! I've never said this outloud before. I've acknowledged my creative side but I've never fully embraced it. Why? Because creatives come across a...