Stellah in the City.

..and making it in Johannesburg Dahlings How are you? I'm fine thanks. Over the weekend I was driving somewhere. I can't remember where to but I was driving on William Nicol and it was evening time. You see, whenever I drive in the evening and there are lots of cars and lights and activity I get excited. When I moved here I was so freaking excited. Every small thing excites me about this place - almost. The crime doesn't excite me. The crazy levels of anxiety from life here doesn't excite me. BUT the possibilities here excite me so friggin much! Sorry, I'm digressing a little. As I mentioned, when I moved here I was so excited. I just new that this was the place I am meant to be. I always thought that I would live here for a couple of years and then move to New York. It's been about six years but I can't see myself living anywhere else yet (maybe I need to travel to NY before I make such a bold statement). I also used to tell people in East London th...

And I refuse to be left behind! Dahlings How are you? I'm fine thanks. So, we left off on a weird note last time. I'm very aware that my life could be a lot worse and I may have sounded like a spoilt brat. Believe me I know. My life has been worse. Really worse. Really really worse. Not worse like living under a bridge kind of worse but I've been through my fair share of crap. I don't know about you, but sometimes things just get heightened and I feel overwhelmed. My mind is all over the show today so this post may reflect that - I apologise in advance. Driving home from work, I was listening to a podcast where the guest was asked what her word for the year was. I can't remember what she said because I took that question to heart and tried to remember my word; and I remember it being: ELEVATION. I had a retrospective session in my mind to see if I feel like my life is being elevated and I think there is some traction - not enough but some. I don't know...

Is it the same thing? Hi Dahlings How are you? I'm fine thanks. It's been a minute I know but life sometimes just gets in the way of having fun. Right now, I should be writing my last test for the semester (and then it's exams YAY! - sarcasm) but I have had this lingering thought for so long that right now it is bubbling over and I know I won't be able to focus until I put it out into the internet-universe like a true millennial. Life is hard. Life is effing hard. Ok I'm done bye! Jokes. I love stories. I love reading stories. I love hearing stories. I love watching stories. I love telling stories. I believe that everyone has a story to tell. The stories that I gravitate towards are 'rags to riches stories' or stories about how people had to suffer to get to their next level of success. It motivates me to strive for more in my life. It's almost like 'the grinding porn'. It's addictive. I NEED to hear stories like that on the...

Dahlings How are you? I'm fine thanks. I have two friends (I mean I have more friends but I'm pointing these two out for a reason) who love to nap. I teased them mercilessly about these bougie tendencies. I don't know many black people who nap during the day. If we ( black people ) 'nap' we sleep. And we call it that. Sleep. These two friends of mine have two things in common - other than being my friends - they are insanely clever. Like multiple degrees with distinctions between the two of them. Until recently I didn't see a connection. You see last year towards the end of the year, I was hella tired. When I was on holiday I slept. A lot. I can't really sleep during the day because I get sleep paralysis. I however dared to sleep and would sometimes wake up feeling invigorated or even more tired because I was fighting sleep paralysis. I did notice however that when I slept for shorter periods of time - less than an hour - I wouldn't get sleep p...

...Is there a difference? Dahlings How are you? I'm fine thanks. I went back to work and my blogging went too. Where to? Who. knows. Ok, I have a real problem with procrastinating. The problem is really real. I have soooo many ideas. I have so much I want to accomplish but I lack discipline. On Wednesday I was having a great conversation with an amazing person who is on the precipice of living his dreams. I've mentioned before that I seem to be surrounded by people who are focused on achieving in their lives. Out of 20 friends that I have (this is an e.g. I have waaaay more friends. JK), 13 of them have side hustles and they are KILLING it. Five of them have turned their side hustles into full on businesses and have left their 9-5's. I have equal opportunities to do this but guess what, I make every excuse under the sun to not go after my dreams. I have been challenged by my friend to tell him my vision so he can keep me accountable. You see, I unwittingly (...

Say that five times fast! Dahlings How are you? I am fine thanks. So at the beginning of every year I do a Daniel Fast. I started this with my old church in East London probably about 9 years ago and have carried on even by myself (and another friend) in Joburg. Every year I have been stricter than the last e.g. the first time I fasted I probably lasted for an hour, the next year I last an hour and three minutes, the next a whole week - see the pattern? As the years have gone by though I have found the benefits of fasting to be much more satisfactory than my constant need for chicken. It's day two and usually the first week is the easiest for me but it's been hella hard this time. I pray it does not incrementally get worse. This year though I am determined to really make sure that I level up the Spiritual connection with God. Even though today I forgot because as soon as I got home from work I got stuck into my usual routine. I recognise that out of 52 weeks of the ye...

And Hello to the New (Year)!!! Dahlings How are you? I'm fine thanks. Happy new year! I think I will wish you a happy new year every time I post until I'm over it. I hope it's good so far... Mine was OK until I literally nearly died from food poisoning yesterday. See what had happen was that I consumed yoghurt night before last. I had only eaten once during the day and found myself famished before I fell asleep and I knew that I would not be able to fall asleep and stay asleep if I was that hungry. In an effort to not eat anything heavy (because when I'm full I get sleep paralysis) I had yoghurt. I started bloating immediately and I thought this is my body saying I'm intolerant so I kept on eating knowing full well that I will not hear any pleasant sounds of farting during the night. Eventually when I stopped I realised that something was not right with this scene. I was far too bloated & was feeling nauseas. I thought 'eh I'll be fine tomorr...

Dahlings Happy New Year! Or as us ndarkies would say "HEEEEEEEPPPPIIIIIIIIII" or even worse "Compliments of the new season" and even worserer than that "Compliments"(I wanna die when I hear this). Anywho... Like many people I have been reflecting on 2018 and to be blatantly honest with you I have been very hard on myself. I hit quite a lot of the milestones I set for myself (an exciting blog post on this will follow on the next episode...feeling the suspense yet?) and when I should be completely proud of myself, I found myself comparing myself to others. Now don't get me wrong, I am hella excited for all the things my people have accomplished. I generally (thank goodness) am not a jealous person so we can strike that off the list. However, comparison creeps in now and again. I like to let this motivate me to also achieve greater things. I have a circle of people around me who are such go-getters and high achievers. I am very grateful for that. ...