Stellah in the City.

Dahlings How are you? I'm fine thanks. (this is staying, best we all deal with it) I hope you're week is going great so far, mine just got exponentially better. The best feeling is finding out the root cause of something that you thought you were an evil person for the longest time. I'm so relieved I could cry. I won't because I have cheap mascara on. Allow me to elaborate. There are two parts of this story. This story is about anxiety. I can count the number of times I've had a full on anxiety attack where I feel like I can't breath and think I'm dying. I know when I'm very stressed my entire left arm gets so painful that it goes numb and there's a knot on the left hand side of my back that triggers the left arm process thingy. The left arm issue got very bad when I just moved to Joburg that I went to see the doctor (I only see the doctor when I literally feel like I'm dying otherwise self diagnosis all the way beech) and h...

I still don't have a bomb way to start a post so here we go... Hi, how are you? I'm fine thanks. I wanted to title this post "AM I NORMAL" and then I thought ' girl nothing about you is normal'. So this post might not have a title. Time will tell. Anyways, I digress. Towards the end of the year last year I started feeling burnt out from being too busy. I was working, studying and had a thriving social life. Don't get me wrong those are nice life problems. I often hear of people say "I struggle to make friends"; for me it is the opposite - I struggle not to make friends. I am very aware that I am blessed in that regard but this comes with its own challenges. I am the sort of person who goes all out for friends and family to a point that it may negatively impact me. I love giving & I love knowing that if a family member or a friend needs something I will be able to help. I have many memories (some of which I vlogged ) from being part...

I have no amazing way to start this blog post so I'll start with...  "Hello. How are you? I am fine thanks" I know. Earth shattering. I'm a young-ish single lady that lives in Johannesburg. It's been close to five years of living here and I am starting to feel like I can call this city my home away from home. I moved here from a little city called East London in the Eastern Cape . I was born in an even smaller town called Mthatha. Some of the greatest South African legends come from there and the rest from my homestead Cofimvaba. I think it would be tacky to mention that my hero and a man with a beautiful mind Tat'Thabo Mbeki (Dutywa which is a stone throw away) & the world's hero Tat'Rholihlahla Mandela were born (Qunu which is also a stone throw away) in Mthatha because that would be name dropping. (When we had the land - there were lots of stones to throw.. I couldn't resist that one...lol) I'm not sure what ...